It’s crazy how something can be daunting but also exciting even within the same breath, right? If I’m being completely honest, this past year has been the most challenging year of my life. It’s pushed me in so many different ways, it’s hard to even put into words. I’ve been excited, I’ve been terrified. I’ve been up, I’ve been down. Just the craziest effing roller coaster I’ve ever been on.
For the sake of transparency, most of my days in the past 8 months have been down. I was spiraling into a dark hole of sadness where it was hard to see past the cloud of negativity. Doubting myself (<—the big one), regretting the move, fearing for my business… I’m not sure what to call it: depression, postpartum craziness, just those stupid hormones? I don’t know. But I knew none of it was good and that something needed to change. I needed to change.
There are things I want to accomplish. Things I want to be a part of. Things I want to provide for those I love. And it just was feeling like those dreams kept fading farther and farther away. I got comfy in my sadness, and I hated it.
“Life will only change when you are more committed to your dreams than you are to your comfort zone.”
So here I am. Trying new things.
I’m scared. But I’m also excited.